Thursday 4 January 2007

I wonder

I wonder, how to some people have the will to do the things they do? how do they actually hang on to that goal, persue it, not give up on it and in the end succeed?? i feel so much like a loser. Everytime i say i'll work hard this sem, i'll do my best, i won't lay back and in the end, im not better off. Everytime i decided ok, here goes, i'm gonna work hard on it, im gonna try and get some excercise done, lost the few extra pounds here and there that i have so conveniently gained from yum chaing and all those moments when i got too tempted to resist food.. XD

I've seen so many ppl improving in their lives, be it studies or be it losing weight or whatever they set their mind on doing..what about me? ooo..i feel so useless at times.. I need to get a grib of myself, get something right once and for all ant not just talk about doing it someday or doing it only halfway. I want to get things done, i wanna do something right for once.. hmmm..

I really pray that God gives me the will and the power to control myself. I hereby, promise everyone that i will work hard and i will try my very best to achieve my 2 goals.. ok?? if i ever slack back u guys can come and kick me or whack me. I won't fight back. Promise. XD