I just..

I just need someone to listen..

Someone that doesn't judge me everytime I speak..

Someone who can just share my pain and be a shoulder I can lean on..

Is that too much to ask for?

I tried once, I tried twice..

Talking to this person I always shared my problems with..

And yet, each time, I got the scolding I suppose, I deserve..

Decided to change.. To share with someone else..

And yet, I get the same reaction as the one before..

I guess, I really deserve this treatment?

I thought I'll make a wrong decision,

If I decide to quite.. So I held on..

Ignoring all my instincts,

Ignoring all my fears..

I told myself, if I gave up halfway,

All would be wasted.. I have to keep holding on..

One thing pass, another thing comes..

Again, I tell myself the same thing..

Just keep holding on..

Today, I reached the limit again..

I finally can't swallow my problems anymore..

I needed to share with someone..

To let that someone know how lost I felt,

How upset I am..

How much I need guidiance..

How much I wanted an answer..

I just want to know what to do..

I just want to know how to proceed..

And again.. I got the same answer..

Made me feel like I'm a rose..

That can't take a little rain,

or a little blow..

That made me feel like I can't live on my own..

That I'm so useless, so dependent, so weak..

Yes.. Fine.. I am..

I guess I just am..

I just want an answer..

Out of my dead end life..