Tired

I guess, every time I disappear for a long time, and then I appear again with quite a pathetic excuse and I usually start my post by saying something about my lack of appearance. This time, the only reason I came back and blog was because I really don't know what else I can do.

I really did try very hard, and really did put a lot of effort into my Masters, yet time after time, incidence after incidence, pushed me backwards, like the waves pushing the swimmer back each time he/she swims forward. I'm so tired of swimming forward and now, I'm just floating on this sea of torment, letting the waves drift me to whatever direction it likes. I don't think its possible to go any further backwards, but then again, you'd never know, would you?

I've no energy to keep fighting. I'm not that strong or tough as most people make out to think I am. For now, I'll just bare with the waves that hit me and wish as hard as I can, that one day the waves will move in direction that favours my direction.